Something happen to me about a month ago that lasted two weeks and I can't get it out of my mind. it has made me so confused about myself that I don't know what
to do. then today, I was surfing the web and came across "XNXX" and found this story site. after reading some of your stories, I’ve decided to ask you writer's and reader's for some advice. I understand that in order for that to happen, I’m going to have to tell you what happen. So let me explain.
I'm a straight, 37 year old white guy that has a wonderful girlfriend of 41/2 years now. We just moved to Fort Collins Colorado back in March and so I don't really know the scene here, so I started checking the town out. One night in April, I got arrested for being drunk and disorderly in public and when I faced the judge, he fined me and gave me 80 hours of community service with the Larimer County Parks and Recreation. Basically, police the park and pick up trash and other things of that nature.
The first day, I had to show up at the County office where I found out that there were others there to do community service as well. All together, I would say there was about 10 of us and the guy we reported to, paired us up in two's and sent us off to different parks around town. I got teamed up with a Hispanic male named, "Jesus" who looked about 25 or so and acted and talked like a tough guy. However, it was hard to understand everything he was saying because his English was so broken.
We were sent to a park called, "City Park" and we began to walk it and clean it. After about an hour of him telling me about his time in jail, I was taken back by the next thing he told me. He said, "you know you are funny. I like you. I’m going to let you suck my dick." I was shocked, I never had anyone tell me that before. I had stopped walking and said, "you know man, I don't do that." I then started to walk away from him thinking I didn't want to talk to him anymore. he ran up next to me and said, "come on man, suck my dick. I know you want to." I raised my voice at him and told him to back off. then I went to the other side of the park and went into the restroom to take a dump.
when I walked into the bathroom, I almost decided not to go. the way this town does it public bathrooms is different from what I have ever seen. the entire bathroom is shiny steal. the sink, the urinal's, even the toilets are metal. and there is no stall door's, so anyone can see you taking a shit. but I had to go, and it was morning, not to many people in the park. so I decided to use the toilet. I had been sitting on throne about 2 minutes when I heard the door open and somebody walk in. a few seconds later, Jesus walked around the stall wall and stepped up right in front of me and began to undo his pants. I started to stand up right away when he put his hand on my head and pushed me back down and said, "don't move." then he resumed taking down his pants.
I again told him that I didn't do that, but within seconds, he had his pants around his ankles and his dick was right in front of my face. as close as his dick was to my face, I couldn't help but look at it. he had a very well endowed, brown, uncircumsized, and very thick cock. it was pretty much hard already and I could see the moister of pre-cum on the tip of his dick. reality of what was about to happen hit me in the face hard. I again tried to get up, but he grabbed my head before I could get anywhere and stuffed my mouth with his cock. I don't remember if my mouth was already open or how he got his dick inside it. all I know is that he was holding my head tightly and pumping his cock in and out of my mouth.
the act of what was going on had me thinking of nothing else. the smell of sweat on his balls and the taste of his cock in my mouth had me focused on the moment. he then said, "I told you, you would like it." I looked up at Jesus's face and noticed he had taken his shirt off as well, and he was watching his dick and my mouth interact. this went on for a little while when he began to pump a bit faster, then I felt his dick swell up in my mouth and before I knew it, the back of my throat was being hit forcefully by squirt after squirt of hot salty cum. he kept pumping as he kept squirting cum into my mouth and I had no choice but to swallow it. there was so much, about 6 or 7 squirts worth, but I swallowed most of it. he kept on for a little bit, then he got dressed and left without saying a word.
I wasn't sure what to think of what had just happened. none of it really bothered me, not even the cum, but I’m just not that way. the rest of the day and into the night, it seemed like a dream. my natural reaction was to deny it to myself. to tell myself it never happened. but when the next day came around and Jesus and I went back to the park, Jesus right away put his hand on the back of my neck and started heading me to the bathroom. he said, "that was so good yesterday, I want another one right now." I don't know why, but I said nothing and let him take me to the bathroom where I sat down on the toilet and let him stick his dick in my mouth again. except this time, I held his butt-cheeks and played with his balls while I sucked his cock. I found myself excited with a hard on as I began to enjoy every second of it. this went on everyday (except sat & sun ) for the next two weeks until my community service was done. the more I sucked him off, the more I liked it. the more I swallowed his cum, the more I wanted to eat more.
so Basically, the advice I need is, what do I do to get more? he wouldn't give me his number and I haven't seen him since. I love my girlfriend and don't want to mess that up, but I want to suck a dick so bad it hurts. these last two weeks without it has me going crazy. how do I find a friend that will let me suck him off on a regular basis? I’m not into the gay scene, nor do I even consider myself gay. I don't want to do anything else sexually with a man other than suck his dick and swallow his cum, and I want to keep my relationship with my girlfriend separate from my oral friendship with a guy. can somebody give me the advice I need?
thanks for taking the time to read this, I welcome any advice that might help.